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As a police officer, I’ve seen evil.

Unfortunately, I see evil all the time.

Evil has many forms and doesn’t always look the same.

I saw evil at the drug overdose where I found a mother holding her dead son in shock and disbelief.

I saw evil when I arrived at the shooting minutes after it took place and watched the victim take their last breath.

I saw evil when I arrived at the freeway accident caused by a drunk driver and put sheets over the deceased.

I saw evil at every  domestic violence call and the marks evil leaves behind physically and emotionally.

I’ve seen evil alright.

As a police officer, even when I hear about a tragedy across the world, I can’t help but think about evil. Whether I want to or not, I think about what the evil looked like. I think about the brave souls who ran to confront it. And worst of all, I think about the people who didn’t deserve to experience it.

Evil.

It’s everywhere it seems, yet books about law enforcement tell us, “There is more in this world besides evil!”

I know it’s true, yet it’s persistence is formidable.

I’m not complaining. As some skeptics say, “It’s what we signed up for.” And to some degree, they’re right, I did sign up to fight evil. That part is true.

What I didn’t realize is the effect it would have on me. Once you see evil, it changes you, forever.

The badge and uniform I wear, don’t protect me from evil. Evil has killed many like me, in more ways than one.

Evil has killed many of us while we were on-duty, by our own hand, and even through alcohol or drugs. We are not impervious to evil.

The badge and uniform don’t protect us from evil, because what’s behind them, is no different than anyone else.

My heart hurts and tears fall, just like everyone else who confronted by true evil.

Despite all of this no matter what, I want you to know, I won’t quit and let evil win.

I wake up every day hoping to prevent evil and if I’m unable, I will fight to hold it accountable.

I protect and serve. I laugh and cry. I succeed and I fail.

But in the end, I’m a police officer by profession, a human by nature, and a warrior by choice.

Rest easy knowing, I will fight evil, so you don’t have to.

Evil will not win.

The Officer Next Door

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3 thoughts on “I’ve Seen Evil

  1. Love your work. Similarly, this montage speaks of what is seen on basically a daily basis.

    The “I Have Seen” Montage

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    From the “Keeping The Peace” project, officers and chiefs speak of what they have seen while in the line of duty… |

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    Not that they would ever ask for it, I’m looking to create an honoring event for officers and the work they do. Officers not just those we have lost, but those in the living.

    Yours Sincerely,

    James Anthony Ellis Legacy Productions LegacyProductions.org (858) 518-5826

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  2. As regards your closing lines: but, we all have to fight evil, and we all should albeit in our own private and public ways outside of law enforcement. Now, do not take me wrong here. I am not advocating for people taking the law into their own hands, but for every evil you noted in your opening far above, there are many things ordinary folks can do to counter evil.

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